Just a short note; perhaps.
I love you baby, I can't describe the deepest feeling inside. One distance day, you will know the feels.
Mama feels guilty when you had a trouble or something happens to you. :(
Last 2 days;
Tidur malam, baby with nanny and your untie and of coz' mama not feeling well to treat you, to feed you, that night (kamu kuat mengempeng) jadi untie feed you through bottle. And of coz' it was mama's milk. Jangan risau, selagi mampu mama berikan yang terbaik buat baby yang sangat mama cintai.
Then bila muncul pagi esoknya, mama terus breasfeed kamu, seperti biasa sendawa and all. But! Suddenly baby mama acting macam nak vomit and tercungap. Juz that!
Then sampai tidur malamnya, mama and baba mesti terjaga untuk lihat kamu. Beberapa kali juga tu, jadi lagi. Even sudah burp secara besar. Baby buat mama tak tentu. Mama takut sangat.
Esoknya pun jadi lagi, around 7pm after mama feed you, and after a big burp. Jadi lagi that thing.
As today,
Mama called first Klinik Desa as they may know more about baby's things and all. The nurse advise to bring you to the hospital.
As that, mama terus brought you to meet up with a doktor baby.
Alhamdulillah.
1) Bout the vomit but not, and tercungap.
2) Perut baby, sometime if usap at perut, baby act like mengelinting macam sakit.
3) Pernafasan di hidung, bunyi nafas kuat.
4) Baby demand susu for moreeeeee ;)
All and all.
Doc terus put baby on the bed, buka barut baby, usap your perut as well. Baby start crying. Doc try to hear your breathing, and try to comfort you with his finger in your mouth.
Baby, doc said that you suck too hard. And of coz kan. Like sometime mama rasa you already have a teeth. Sakit.
Doc beritahu mama,
1) Nothing to do with your lung.
2) The little problem only on your nose, doc said that baby need a time to learn how to breath, how to swallow; so that doc try to spray your nose to help you clear up your nose. Kamu teriak kuat, tak sampai hati mama tengok. And terus, keluar the mucus juz a little. Alhamdulillah.
Then doc juz sedut with nose frida.
(Cara guna; juz pegang like a pen, pastikan baby did'nt move, then sedut)
3) Doc suggest, after bf hold you for 15-20min. Letakkan baby mengiring, tinggikan bantal.
4) Perut if baby got colic; juz usap.
5) Baby demand susu; boleh feed baby 5oz selagi baby mahu and if perut baby tak keras!
6)If ingat mama sambung lagi....
Oh, starting minggu ni. Baby dah selalu senyum, pantang mama tegur. Before ni kamu juz senyum after bangun tidur and dalam mimpi. But now, pantang mama bercakap dengan kamu. I love that. Cair hati mama, hilang sekejap semua sakit dan penat.
Baby, mama still tak percaya. But one thing, mama bersyukur dengan anugerah indah ini.
Ya Allah, Engkau lindungilah bayiku ini.
**start semalam ada putih2 bulat2 di dinding pipi inside your mouth. Ish, mama lupa nak tanya doc!
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